Coping with guilt and grief

[John]

I was having a really busy month but I was worried about my friend and told myself that I would text him on the up coming Tuesday. However, that Monday he took his own life. 

I feel a lot of guilt because I did know that something was wrong. If I had acted sooner, he wouldn't have been alone, and he wouldn't have died. No "maybe" about it. 

He had attempted suicide several times and I was there for him every time, to try and help him survive and recover.

My guilt is hurting my ability to grieve. I can't allow myself to acknowledge that he is really gone and its been months since his passing.

Does anyone have a similar experience, or ideas on how to move forward?

[Ava]

I'm dont have a similar experience but I do know that this wasn't your fault and you can't be upset with your self forever. Have you tried writing? Sometimes that helps for different people.