Fining a way back to healing without my son herewith me.

[Regina Diana Reed]

 Hi everyone!my name is Diane,and this is my first time here. Dont exactly know how this works,but my life has been turned upside downsince my sons unexpecly passed away in jan of this year. He was all the family I had left,and I am struggling to find a reason to go on myself.I have never been alone and this is so overwhelming I dont know how to move forward. I cant sleep,I cant eat, I have nightmares. I just dont know how to cope with such emptiness .Its like a part of my heart and soul have been ripped out of me,and I dont know how to start to heal.The tears are just flowing down my cheeks writing this. I thought if I could chat with others who feel like II do it may help me. Friends and co workers can only take so much before they run away from you. So, I thought if I could meet others who have or are walking in the same shoes I am  it would help the healing for us all. My son Ed was 45 years old when he went to take a nap,and he never awoke from. I nevergot to say good bye,I love you,nothing. Drs think he had aa heart attack of some degree,never heard a sound.I am  thankful the Lord took him quickly and peacefully,but It doesnt help me on this journey back to life as they call it. I do not feel it is life. Life should be full of happiness,laughter,and fun filled memories. mine is full of pain,saddness,  and being alone.So many unanswered questions on how to cope, how to live with this loss. thank you all for reading this and listening to this old lady ramble on. But,I do hope it will help me, you all of us heal,and find some peace for ourself, the survivior. :)

[Sylvia Freifeld]

I will be thinking of you gina

[Regina Diana Reed]

thank you sylvia, Im doing okay today, so far, I am grateful to you and many others here who reach out to me daily. we are all family in our way here. many blessings my friend.:) 

[Regina Diana Reed]

Hi everyone. well I made it through the month of March. I got through his empty birthday with a few less tears. I still have the emptiness and the lonilness, so I suppose this will always be from now on. I want to thank ya ll for sharing your stories with me and made me feel less alone when I m here. I wish it was all a nightmare and I would awake with my precious son  smiling at me once again. My heart aches and feels so empty, like nothing I have ever felt before n my life.I promised I wouldnt cry while writing this, but of course the tears all falling from my cheeks.I wish it would all be over and find some peace and joy once again, but I doubt if that will ever happen either. Keep praying for me as I will keep praying for all of you as well. may we find comfort here. take care my friends..gina.:)