How do I do this

[Shaking Griffith]

Hi, I am new here. I apologized for the bad grammar and spelling. I also am sorry if I seem all over The place I'm just trying to get this out.

The last 36 months have been he'll for me and my sister.  We are strong and put on a smile in public, like everything  is already send we are keeping it together. Everyone  is always  saying how "strong"  we are. 

You see 36 months ago my dad who had Alzheimer  disease suffered a stroke and than he has a series of seizures. He was given 48 hrs to live. Fun huh. At the end of the 48 my mom ( a Parkinson's patient ) suffered a twisted bowel and was given a colostomy bag.

My mom, my best friend  she lived for three more months. It is still hard not having her here. I miss her daily and I know  I haven't completely  let her go. I couldn't because  well I still had to be present  for my dad, who was now in A coma. 

My mom left in August 2014. September 2015 my daddy left. So now I'm left to process life without  my parents when My older brother who has been diagnosed with Parkinson  as well despite  being only in his 40's. He has now been moved into a hospice and I know I'm going to loss him soon. I need him. I need my big brother to guide me through this pain. How do I do this. The pain is too intense. To big. I want them al, back. 

[Judy Davidson]

Welcome to Grief Hope Network and thank you for sharing your story and your feelings.  I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your parents.  You have made a BIG first step in reaching out to others who know how you feel.  Grief always waits, so it's never too late to start the process of dealing and healing.   

All members here have empathy for what you are going through.  I'm recovering from the loss of my mother last February.   My husband passed away in 2004 and I started this site to help others a few years ago.  Please reach out to other members through the Network, Member Blogs and Forum Chats.  The chat room tends to have more people in it at night.  The Home Page has some good Blog Posts too.  I pray the resources here provide Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow.  You take good care of yourself.  BIG hug!    

God bless,

Judy

Founding member

Welcome to Grief Hope Network and thank you for sharing your story and your feelings.  I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your parents.  You have made a BIG first step in reaching out to others who know how you feel.  Grief always waits, so it's never too late to start the process of dealing and healing.   

All members here have empathy for what you are going through.  I'm recovering from the loss of my mother last February.   My husband passed away in 2004 and I started this site to help others a few years ago.  Please reach out to other members through the Network, Member Blogs and Forum Chats.  The chat room tends to have more people in it at night.  The Home Page has some good Blog Posts too.  I pray the resources here provide Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow.  You take good care of yourself.  BIG hug!    

God bless,

Judy

Founding member