how do I go on without my son?

[Regina Diana Reed]

 Hi, my name is Diane. I recently lost my son Ed in Jan of this year. He went so unenexpectly and quickly and quietly.I didnt get a chance to tell him good bye,or Ilove you one more time, My son and I have been the only true family we ever had,just the two of us. So, now its just me. I just dont know how to move forward without him with me.I cant eat, certainly cant sleep, wake up in nightmares. I feel like part of my soul,my inner being,my heart has been ripped from this human body. The emptness and the feeling of being so alone is unbearable.Ive never felt this kind of emptness. Ive lost all of my family,parents,all of my sibblings,my husband,and now my only child.I sometimes wonder what has the Lord done? But, then I think it must be me,not my son who needs to learn from this tradgedy. But what?I cant seem to function enough to find my way out of this dark pit of angony. So if any of you kind people have some advice for this grieving mother please reply.  I am searching for any little grasp of hope I can find. thank you for listening and reading this.May the Pord bless us all with some peace and rest one day soon....Diane.