To my wife and father. I love and miss you both sooo much! It will be 3 months soon since I lost you both. The pain inside is at times unbearable. I am sick of restless sleep looing for you in my dreams. Although I don't feel you around, I hope you are watching over me. Help me through these holidays!
Thanks, that makes sense. It's hard when people tell me what I should do. I tell them everyone handles things differently. My kids definitely keep me strong.
I am getting to the point where I have no ambition, mostly when the kids are not around but it is getting more and more frequent. Even at work, I'm a GF but I don't want to be. I feel as if I could step down and just be a worker. What's the point now? I have nothing to plan for. I should exercise but can't get myself to do it. I just want to curl up in a ball for a year.
Thank you for listening. I can't help but feel like I am going backwards at times. I went to visit her father yesterday, he's in a nursing home, he is all there but a bit forgetful. He remembers everything about Sam though. That was tough and filled me with emotions both for my wife and father. I would hate to avoid seeing him just because it hurts me. I hope that with time visiting him will be easier.
how did the holidays go for you?
me 2 i miss my dad i no its bean 2 yrs 3.3.2012
Hi. I am new to this site. I am sorry for your loss. I know the feeling and yes the pain is unbearable. Hopefully if enough people help us all to talk about our losses, it will be rewarding. I hope that your Christmas was ok. Nice to know that people care.
xmas i hit boze a bit 2 block iy a bit 2 num pain coz my dads bday wz 26th dec