I feel your pain. I lost my husband 3 weeks ago. My world will never be the same and like you I'd rather be with him than here without his love.
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Thanks Michelle for the reply. These emotions of grief are so similar that I cry for you also now. It is 6.30pm here. I am so alone, so miserable without my husband that I try to end the day as early as possible and just go to bed. The so called friends who said they would be there lasted about a week. I guess I am not much company any way. If my husband saw me now he would be angry and disappointed but I can't help missing him and our life together.
Michelle I have tried counselling, seen a psychologist, tried bereavement chat rooms online and am even contemplating meds to help with the how to do 'grief.' I don't believe there are answers or that quick fix. This new journey for us is not what we wanted or planned for and I'm not even sure what will come with time but the love we had with our husbands cannot be diminished by death.
Strangely enough when I go to visit Richard's resting place I do not feel him there at all. He is at home with me where he will always belong so light a candle for your Shaun at home and know that your love won't be extinguished.
That's right that we are not given any choice but thrown into grief when we lose a loved one. I lost my husband two months ago, not a single day has passed when I didn't cry. I long to be with him all the time. I have two very young kids to take care of so I pretend to be strong before them.
Recently, I have started reading books on life after death. Surprisingly, I have been able to convince myself that my husband's soul will wait for me to meet with me in the spirit world. This sounds very impractical but right now I am looking for any straw that can help me float in the deep waters of sadness, sorrow, loneliness, and despair.