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I just want to hear my dad's voice one more time.

My dad fell into a diabetic coma last week. We had all hoped he'd recover but after hearing my dad moan like a child last night while his gown was being changed. I have cried for nearly 7 days straight. He is only 55. Now that man in his place on the bed is just an empty shell. After talking it over with his wife and my sister, we decided to call it and have his feeding tube removed. I thought it would be easy once we talked it over, talked about the good times. But its not.
My sis and I are both military so we can't stay around the entire time.
Right now, I feel alone. Even with everyone telling me how much he loves me, how much they love me. Even with how supportive everyone has been, I still feel alone. I feel like I'm in a pitch dark warehouse and then only light is a huge spotlight over me. I feel like there is nothing but dead silence around me. I know this is what he wants, but it still hurts. Even now as I write this, I am crying. I feel completely alone.

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Hi Mike. I hope you’re ok. My dad, also 55 is going through the same experience, except he has brain cancer. I empathized so much with this post. I feel so alone too, I know that i’m surrounded by people who love me (and who I love) but I feel so distant. I hope you’ve found some sort of solace. X
Hi. I offer my condolences as I went through something similar. He was only 37. It was unexpected and struck a large blow to my whole family. If you ever need to talk I am open.

Hi Mike, you are not alone. we all have had some major losses. i lost my son  suddenly and unexpectly and he was the last of my family I had to let go . I was and truly alone. It is an um=nimaginable experience,and no one truly understands unless they have walked in your shoes. this is a wonderful group here and will always pick you up when you fall and wipe away your tears when they fall. to see what youve written sounds just like what I experienced too. I felt lie I was in this dark whirl wind and couldnt fin the way out. I am here if you  ever want someone to talk to or just need to know someone is here who knows your pain. many blessings Mike, and dont give up :) gina.

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