Im sorry youre feeling this pain. It is hell! I hope you find comfort in the near future. Keep fighting for yourself.
I don't think it ever truly goes away. It is not natural for a mother to live longer than her child. We are suppose to be the ones leaving them behind. And your right, it is like a rollercoaster, you are going along just fine and a memory hits you and you are blubbering mess. Just hang in there.
Kylie, my heart breaks for you. I lost my son 3 years ago today and it is just as raw as the moment it happened. I have no words that can ease your pain, heal your grief or heal the emptiness in your heart. I can be a friend and listen when you need someone to hear you cry out. I have no family left as he was the last of my family., which is why I became a member here, the people here understand our pain, and our emptiness. If you want to reach out to me just let me know. I am here and I do understand your sorrow, and emptiness. May the Lord hold you close and heal your heart and dry your tears. many blessings to you . Diane.