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I miss my son Noah who I never got to know

Ever time I get home from work I know the room is filled with everthing but my baby boy Noah.See no lost the fight because his heart had a large hole in it, as mine does now that he is gone.My wife and i were so excite to have a child together and were all ready for his arrival we just neverthought he would be stillborn.We knew there were problems when the doctor was concerned at the first ultrasound.He explained the ambiotic fluid was very low and my wife was at high risk.We had to go in for ultrasounds every two weeks.  They kept a close eye on her and the baby and around the 23 week discovered that the fluid in the impilical cord was absent so more worries they seen a spot on the bowel that was told to use might be downs. We were scared but my wife works with special needs children and is very good with them so we prepared ourselfs for that. Later the doctor told us he seen no indication to worry about the downs that it was just a note in the folder, we were happy to hear that. but then came more news bad news that the ambotic fluid was very low and the fluid going to baby from plasenta was know reverse. They sent us home to get some things and they were admitting her into the hospital til baby came she was at about 26 weeks at this time. We went in 2 days before Christmas and there we were they were monitoring my wife and my son well he was very fisty he did not like being messed with when they tryed to get a heart beat he would move all around. the Doc said his heart beat sounded strong. They had two specialist come in and check baby Noahs heart. In the meantime they came and got me and my wife and took us on a tour of the nicu man that was rough so much pain. See he was a very small baby premy only 14oz at 26 weeks so if they had to deliverhe would have to go to the nicu. when we got back to the room about about 30 minutes passed and the heart doctor came in with a piece of paper and told us our son had a large hole in the wall orf his heart and he also had two othe heart problems I cant recall the names but they could all be fixed with surgery but the problem was that it could not be done on a baby of his size. Our regular Doctor came in and said Im sorry there is nothing we can do. He would have to make it to 3 1/2 pounds to have surgery and they would have to fly my wife to Ann Arbor Michagen for the surgery but the Doc gave him a 10% chance to make it to 29 weeks he said if we have to deliver now or anytime soon the baby will die. that was on xmas eve 12/24/2013 he told us to go home and be with family. The baby kicked all xmas day and the next day which was Sunday I left for work that night and the baby was still kicking. The next morning I got off early because we were instructed to go in for a ultrasound and the most painful thing I have ever seen was when all I could see was a lifeless baby with no heartbeat My wife said she somehow knew. After sometime crying the Doc came in and said for us to come back to have my wife deliver the baby.  We went home and told my stepson and mother in law the news and they cried. We went back to the hospital and the started inducing labor and 9 hours later out came our baby boy Noah who would not be going home with us or even to the nicu. I can not describe the amount of pain and emptiness I and my wife felt as we held our dead son in our arms crying, all the praying did not save our son but somehow I knew he was with god and the angels and suffered nothing no pain. We took pictures and told him we loved him and got moldings and made funeral arrangements. RIP my sweet son Noah J Robetson I now know how you felt with a hole in you heart. Love mom and dad and big brother.           Laid to rest on 1/3/2014

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i am so very sorry for your loss of your son Noah . there is nothing i can say but i am so so very sorry 

He celebrated Christmas with you. Noah was sleeping in your arms, he was born an Angel.

Larry I am so sorry.  God be with you and your family.

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Sympathize with you.

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