Loss of a baby

[Nicole]

On April 27 (my birthday) I found out I was expecting with baby #2. My fiancé and I already have a daughter together. It was the best birthday ever. We found out we were having another baby and he proposed. Life was great. One beautiful gorgeous baby and now another. We went to the doctors the next week and he confirmed by blood work that we were indeed about 5 weeks along.
On May 5, it became the worse day of my life. I woke up and realized by the amount of blood I had lost our child. I can't seem to wrap my head around this, and I know I'll never get an answer as to why this happened but I cry myself to sleep every night. I am forever grateful for my beautiful healthy daughter I have but I can't stop thinking of the baby I lost.
I am just having a very hard time trying to deal with all of this.

[Judy Davidson]

Dear Nicole,

Thank you for sharing your story and your feelings.  I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriage.  You have made a BIG first step in reaching out to others who know how you feel.  I'm so thankful that you and your fiance have each other and you're able to pour love on your beautiful daughter.  

Members here have empathy for what you are going through as we've all experienced loss.  I'm recovering from the loss of my mother in February.   My husband passed away in 2004 and I started this site to help others a few years ago.  Please reach out to other members through the Network, Member Blogs and Forum Chats.  The chat room tends to have more people in it at night.  The Home Page has some good Blog Posts too.  I pray the resources here provide Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow.  You take good care of yourself.  BIG hug!    

God bless,

Judy

Founding member

[Jenny Robinson]

Nicole,

     It's hard to wrap your mind around something like this. It's hard knowing that you lost something so important to you, and I know how much it must hurt to even think about it. I'm extremely sorry for your loss, i know it must be unbearable, but it's okay dear.  

    Though I've never lost a baby, I did lose my mother 10 months ago. Our lives are surrounded in love and loss, but in our time of loss we manage to stick together in order to find peace. It's good to cry, because it's your soul trying to release it's feelings to the world.

     Your baby was a big part of you and now that the baby is gone, you feel lost and hurt. But do not fear, I will try as well as everyone here will try to help you through this pain. It is hard, but with the help of family, friends, and us; we will help you through this.

    No matter what happens you must never forget the child that never was, because that child was still here even if not in person. The baby surrounds you even now, their spirit will always be with you. I'm here and try to be one all the time if you wish to talk.

   Hugs, and Love sent your way. I send luck and healing your way me dear. <3

[Aaron]

I lost a baby...16 days old...to herpes1...aka coldsore...now I resent what happened...drink...a lot...have tuwo kids since, who are ages 5 and 2...piled up with debt...desperate for any money...wanting to have handouts as I feel owed by life.
Need a way out... ... ...