In May, my husband of 16 years passed away. It was very unexpected. I feel like I'm cursed. Or like I have personally offended God maybe. My dad passed away last February(2016). Later that year, I tried to fix my life. I had to separate from my husband so I could get sober. He didn't. He kept using. But I got clean, got my dream job and was doing good. I was happy. Then EVERYTHING fell apart. I lost my job. My husband died. I got in stupid legal trouble. Now I just found out I'm sick. With something pretty serious. WTF??? I don't understand. I'm still sober... I'm blessed to be sober. I really am grateful for that, but everything else.... How much can I handle?