Hi Kristy. my name is diane. I feel your pain aas I lost my only son too.I had alot of anxiety myself when he passed , kept waiting for my turn. I was in such darkness, and it felt like I was in a whirlwind constantly. I too had depression, thats why I joined here 3 years ago.There hasnt been alot of help here lately, but I keep coming back for support. I know friends mean well, but unless you ve lost a child , no matter their age they cant unerstand what you are going through, sorry for the typos, I guess it is hard to type with tears falling. If you want someone to talk to who knows what you are feeling I am here. It does help us to talk , and then we dont feel quite as alone. I wish you strength, faith and many prayers to you. Keep looking forward and cry when you need to.Grief seems to overcome you andconsume you if you let it. I walked around for one year after my son passed, in numbness and dont really remember getting through each day, but somehow by the grace of God I did,take care my friend...diane.