The one year anniversary of my brothers passing is coming up and all i seem to be able to do is just cry and hurt. I will check my messages thinking maybe he texted me and then it hits me all of a sudden and it feels like its killing me. I cant help but think of all he ever did for us and how he always tried to hang out with me but i just never compromised with him. I think what scares me the most is whether he really is in heaven or if hes just gone. Ill smell something or ill see something…