I need to do something. I just cant let my past go and move on the way i should. I moved from the house where i lived with both of my husbands amd i thought by moving i could leave the pain behind, but it came with me and my three kids. I bought a new house and my boyfriend and his children live here but he may be leaving. Had a terrible christmas. I have a wall that i cant put down and i have ruined the relationship. I just dont know how to make it thru life anymore. I have been fighting for 11 years since my first husband died but i am losing the battle. I cant fight it anymore.