"For me grief is one of the hardest things. It’s something that sneaks up on you when you think your having a semi good day or it’s just something that smacks you in the face the moment you wake up. I lost all my siblings so I lost all my…"
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- I've lost so many people and I never had time to grieve. Someone always died before I could grieve for the one before and I had children watching me and going through the same losses and one of my children were diagnosed with a brain tumor.....he's still doing well..... I didn't lose him however it was another reason to put grieving on hold. Through most of all of it my best friend was there for me I divorced and she even had to help financially as I am disabled and a single parent. I could always count on her, as she, was able to count on me financially and emotionally through her divorce and single parent time. I lost her September 30th 2019. I have been lost ever since. Her family who was NEVER THERE in her times of need have decided I just took from her however they don't seem to remember that I have financially to her for many years even my mother and my husband's father helped her while she was a trying to make ends meet as a single mother. She had medical problems and I lived two hours away but I was there for every appointment ( which was another hour from her home) as she wasn't comfortable driving due to the meds she was taking I took her to every surgical procedure, Dr appointment, follow up and any ER visit if needed as her husband worked out of town. She had two daughters one was even a RN completely debt free when she got out of school. They each lived twenty minutes from her and it was always me taking her and coming ANYTIME she needed anything, even though I have children in school,sports, and everything else. I stayed days at a time helped out around the house and she always felt so guilty because of her health she couldn't do the same for me. She always helped me and the kids financially and wouldn't let me pay her back she always said " JoDe I could never pay you for all you do for me"." I can't return the time and care and help you give me I can NEVER pay enough for what you do". " Please don't feel guilty about any money we give you" her husband told her to find me a car when I didn't have one because I had to be able to get to her. He was very kind and appreciative made sure the oil got charged and fixed brakes for me.....we joked because I am a redhead and so was he that I was their redheaded stepchild Kelly refered to him as Dad when talking to me. I always felt good about that and knowing they were there for me as my parents and my mother and father in law as well as any aunt's uncle's grandparents were all gone.....they gave me security I so needed. When she passed unexpectedly they didn't call me, I called and called and finally called her daughter and was told she had passed...... I blew up "dad's" phone he was in Tyler Tx doing the wrong thing I was so upset he drove all the way to my sister's house in Dallas to see me. Afterwards and I mean shortly like within a week.....house phone off, Kelly's phone off anyway I reached out to her daughter and was told I did nothing but manipulate Kelly into giving me money??????? WHAT??? I actually didn't even take everything she offered and always cleaned her house or did laundry, did gardening..... something to feel like I was not taking anything. She read through the text messages ( which is completely an invasion of privacy) Kelly would have been devastated by that. However, they did, now mind you we talked usually about one -2 hours A DAY on the phone very seldom text if we did it was short and sweet or like when I was waiting to see my doctor things like that. I was HORRIFIED! I couldn't believe anyone could take a over twenty year friendship of love care and deep devotion and destroy the very meaning of it. Everything I felt I should be doing, taking care of her animals checking on the kids and grandkids try to keep her hubby straight to honor her and do my best to take care of all she loved and took care of I was completely cut out of...... I haven't even gotten to sit in her room or on the porch with the dog and cry and mourn I now am grieving for tha
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- At 10:23am on March 21, 2020,
JoDe Leppard said…
- If anyone has any words of wisdom please, please, share them with me....God bless
- At 3:51am on April 5, 2020,
Good Day,
How is everything with you, I picked interest on you after going through your short profile and deemed it necessary to write you immediately. I have something very vital to disclose to you, but I found it difficult to express myself here, since it's a public site.Could you please get back to me on:( soniacheng123@gmail.com ) for the full details.
Have a nice day weekend
Sonia
- At 12:06pm on March 7, 2021,
- For me grief is one of the hardest things. It’s something that sneaks up on you when you think your having a semi good day or it’s just something that smacks you in the face the moment you wake up. I lost all my siblings so I lost all my best friends. I put a smile on my face for my kids cause they deserve a mom that’s present even when I feel anything but... just know you don’t have to be perfect or great for the day you just have to be good enough.
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