About me

[Joe Daniel]

A short story about me. I lost my wife to suicide October 3rd this year. She was a wonderful stepmother o my 2 children. We area all seeing counselors (separately). I find it hard to open up to my friends or family, even my therapist! I figured I could open up on this page because I won't know anyone. I can't stop being sad, I feel like a piece of rotting fruit and it's only getting worse. How else can I cope? The thought of holidays are killing me. If it weren't for the kids I wouldn't even have a tree. Actually if it weren't for them I probably wouldn't be here! Who am I going to hug and kiss on new years? I know..my kids, but it's not the same. I feel like I have no future anymore. All of our plans are gone. I am told to take one day at a time but it's not that easy to not think about it. Sorry if I sound so Blah, but my whole family and friends see the "strong me" no one knows the pain inside. I need to let it out!!