I want to do something for my wife.

[Shon Fults]

It's been a really bad 14 months since my 32 year old wife died. I've been feeling so bad about myself, feeling sorry for myself, that I had forgotten the good memories. Today was surprisingly a good day thinking about her. I just did a slideshow of pic off my iPad of her. She was smiling in every pic. I remember that what attracted me to her the most was her love to live. She would just start talking to someone if they looked like they were having a bad day. She would talk to anyone. She was always smiling,cracking jokes, and making people laugh or feel good about themselves. I'm sure she changed a lot of lives, just by meeting her. But this, what I'm writing is for her. I have no one else to tell how good of a woman she was and how she accepted me into her life and how, she changed my life for the better.
I was a dick. I was jelous. I was possessive over her. Bad!
So today, I want to honor my wife, give her praise, and tell her how much she changed my life.
She would be so proud of me now. She wanted me this way the whole time we were together. Funny how I refused to change no matter what. Partying and drinking every day. She stuck by my side no matter what! So now I'm like how she wanted me. I'm a bit late though. That hurts. I cross my fingers that there is a afterlife and she sees me now.
Anyways, Jessie Jane Fults, I love you with all my heart! I am sorry for being a dick and a drunk. U see me now and I'm sure your proud but I'm soooo sorry I did not relize how bad I was at that time. I WILL NEVER FORGETT YOU and I promise to keep moving forward and keep you proud. I loved you more than life then and I love you more than life now.

R.I.P.
Shon

[Judy Davidson]

WOW!  Thank you Shon for humbly sharing your thoughts about your relationship with your wife.  Jessie sounds like an amazing woman; I'm glad you had her in your life.  You seem to be doing so well.  Keep it all the great works you're doing one day at a time ... it does get better.     

[maryellenmcquown]

 her she would be so proud of u  yes there is a heaven and i am sure that she is there at peace now yes like Judy said just one day at a time you will be ok i au so sorry for your loss but ao proud of you 

[Sue Kusowski]

Shon,
So sorry for your loss. Believe your beautiful wife is watching from the heavens and is very proud of you. Keep
up the good work.
Sue