Lost In The Death Fog

[Sue Kusowski]

Wow whoever said when you lose someone with time it will get better lied
I lost my 33 Yr old daugther Fed,23 2012. might as well have been yesterday the pain is the same. We are now raising her two children 6 & 17. She lost her battle with liver failure after a long 3 yr long and painful fight only to
end with use removing her off life support, her passing 2/1 days later.So for me nothing has gotten easier not knowing if you have made the right decision.

[Judy Davidson]

Hi Sue,

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and story about your daughter.  I'm so sorry.  You're right - Maybe grief doesn't get better, just something you eventually get used to?  Like losing a limb?  I hope you find comfort in knowing your grandchildren are with you and she's a part of them.  Please feel free to share anytime, join the chat room, check out the blogs etc . for support.

SIncerely,

Judy Davidson

Founding GHN member   

[Jo-Anne Bousquet]

Hi Sue,

   I am so very sorry for your loss and the decision that you had to make. I lost my boyfriend to a heart attack 5 wks ago and the pain is overwhelming. We were raising my 3 yr old grand daughter and now its just me. She has been my saving grace like I hope yours are to you. I wish I had words to say that would make you feel better but I guess we all have to come to terms with it all in our own time. I hope in time you realize that the decision you made was based on the love you felt for your daughter. I'm considering going to a bereavement group because I feel so alone, maybe it would benefit you too? Maybe the whole family could go.  Take Care and God Bless  Jo-Anne

[Sue Kusowski]

I just wanted to say Thank You to everyone for your support. Am so happy to have found this site to know I am not alone with my feelings. Sue

[Sue Kusowski]

Hi, Jo-Anne
So sorry for your loss. You are so right these little ones are our saving grace if not for them I might not have made it this last two years.At time they make it harder because I see her missing all the mile stones, birthdays, ect. The 17 y.o is graduating in June and going into the Navy, she should be here for this. This will be the hardest time for me. How do you get through these times?

[Sue Kusowski]

So not looking forward to tomorrow.Have my 6 y.o. going to bring
me flowers for mothers day and I have to be happy about that however I have to take him to his mommies gravesite to put flowers on her grave, how are we to be happy about this? This feels like a no win situation for all involved. I am angry at my darling angel above for putting her innocent baby in this situation. So not fair to him or his older brother. It really stinks just want tomorrow to go away.