Lost my wife

[Ken Harris]

My wife died on May 19 after a 8 year battle with ovarian cancer. I am so lost without her. Today is our Anniversary, and I wish I could just lay down, close my eyes, and not wake up. I see the pain of others on the site, and at least I know I am not alone in the emptiness.

[heidi bermender]

sorry ken  I lost my sweet angel husband the love of my life my world my soulmate to esphagas cancer he was bedriedden and died at home I layed in bed with him hugging him and telling him ilove him deeply and thanking him for everthing he did for me  we were two people that shared the same heart he worte me poetry and 300 cards he wa my entire world

[Ken Harris]

Heidi - my heart breaks for you. I feel the same way. I laid in bed with my wife at the hospice and held her often. Honestly, I didn't know a person could hurt as much as we both are hurting right now.

[heidi bermender]

KEN THKS FOR THE WONDERFUL RESPOND YES THE PAIN IS ENORAMOUS AND THE YEARNING IS ALWASY THERE HE ALWASY WORTE ME POETRY AND 300 CARDS WE WERE TWO PEOPLE THAT SHARED THE SAME HEART  WE ALWASY SAID THE SAME THING AT THE SAME TIME WE ALWASY HELD HANDS AND HE WAS MY LIFE MY WORLD MY BEST FRINED I FEEL SO VERY LOST AND FEEL IAM ON THIS LONG DARK JOURNEY

[heidi bermender]

ken if you like we can talk  when I get on the chat grief net it may help us to talk I know that my heart aches everyday for my sweet angel

[Ken Harris]

Yes - I certainly understand. I wish there was a quick fix for this, but I know there isn't. I keep praying for peace, and trust that God will provide. I will pray the same thing for you.

[heidi bermender]

hi ken  I hope the grief share helped you I a;lso had the grief share at church too  sorry I went into the chat room and I missed talking to you  prayers

[heidi bermender]

ken its me again  there is another good book called love lives on by Louis lagrand   that also a good book to read thks fro talking  to me and let me know when you go back in so maybe we can help each other through this painful journey of grief  prayers to you and your fam

[Judy Davidson]

I am so sorry for your loss.  Grief sucks, doesn't it?  Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings.  I do know from personal experience that communication is key. In addition to the resources on this site, blog posts on the home page, book suggestions etc.  Grief groups really helped me too.  CHeck out www.GriefShare.org

Thank you for participating on this site, I hope you find some help and comfort. 

Sincerely,

Judy Davidson

Founding GHN member 

[heidi bermender]

I KNOW THE BOOK THAT HELPED ME WAS HEALING GRIEF AND FINDING PEACE BY LOUIS LAGRAND

 

[Lulu]

Hi Ken so sorry for the loss of your beautiful wife. I also lost someone dear to me. The journey takes us to places we don't want to be. I defiantly didn't want to wake up in the morning . Its been five months since he has been gone and i miss him I cry everyday, I also feel a bit of warmth sneaking in my heart and thats the feeling of letting him rest in peace. Please believe me when I say you will feel better but before the happens you're going to feel worse sorry to say. Its a battle! Please know we are here to listen and help each other.