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Even though my grandmother has been missing for 5 years it still doesn't seem real sometimes. The day she went missing was definitely the worst day of my life. That day plays over and over again in my head and blocks any of the good memories we had when she was still here. That year was so difficult, my life just fell apart all at once. I never let myself grieve properly, because I thought I needed to be strong for my family. I've hid my sorrow, sadness, grief, anger, and despair for so long that it has finally started to weigh me down. I feel like I'm drowning but can still see everyone breathing around me. Having someone die in your life is a terrible heart wrenching thing, but having a missing in your life is 50 times more profound. You constantly have what ifs and unanswered questions that run through your mind every second of the day. I can go from laughing and seeming like I'm enjoying life to a melt down in 5 minutes. I've just recently accepted the fact that it's okay not to be okay and it's alright to admit you need a little help.

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Comment by Judy Davidson on June 21, 2014 at 5:39pm

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us Ann.  I'm so sorry to hear about your missing grandmother.  I agree that must be difficult; all the unanswered questions.  You're right that  it's OK NOT to be OK and to ask for help.  You've come to the right place!

I know from personal experience that communication is key so you're doing a great thing by sharing with us. Check out the chat room, other blog posts and the ones on the Home Page. We hope you find some Help for today and Hope for tomorrow.

Big hug,

Judy

Comment by Lulu on June 22, 2014 at 6:20pm

Yes its okay not to be okay and accept you need help. This is why we are all here to find a bit of help breath a  little , sometimes talking to strangers helps more than we think releases some stress and helps us through another day. I pray you find closure in your grandmothers disappearance we are here if you need to talk.

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