MY GRIEF

[heidi bermender]

IAM STRUGGLING WITH THE PAIN OF GIREF ITS BEWEN 17 MONTHS SINCE MY SWEET ANGEL PASSED AWY

HE WAS MY SOULMATE MY LIFE MY WORLD  IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY TO ME  I REMEMBER LAYING IN BED WITH HIM HE WWAS BEDRIDDEN FROM ESPHAGAS CANCER  I HUGGED HIM TIGHT IN MY ARMS AND TOLD HIM I LOVE HIM DEEPLY AND THANKING HIM FOR EVERYTHING HE DID FOR ME  HE WAS SO VERY

PRECIOUS TO ME WE ALWASY HELD HANDS AND SAID THE SAME THING AT THE SAME TIME HE WROTE ME THE MOST BEWAUTUFL POEMS AND 300 CARDS HE SAID WE ARE TWO PEOPLE THAT SHARE THE SAME HEART WQE ARE TWO PEOPLE THAT SHARE THE SAME HEARTBEAT  I FEEL LOST AND AFRAID AND FEEL LIFE HAS NO MORE MEANING TO ME THE WORLD IS UPSAIDE DOWN I AM IN A VERY DEEP DEPRESSION IT SEEMS WHEN I COME INTO THIS CHATROOM IAM ALL THE TIME ALONE IN HERE SEEMS LIKE NOONE WANT TO

TALK SO IF THERE IS A KIND PERSON OUTTHERE TO CONTACT ME TO TALK  BLESS ALL OF YOU

[Judy Davidson]

Hello Heidi,

I am so sorry for your loss.  Grief sucks!  Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings.  I do know from personal experience that communication is key. In addition to the resources on this site, blog posts on the home page, book suggestions etc.  Grief groups really helped me.  You can find one near you at www.GriefShare.org

Sincerely,

Judy Davidson

Founding member  

[Lulu]

Hi Heidi I know to well what your feeling! depression hit me hard I slept for hours at a time and my body ache hurt like it never hurt before. Grief is a process and talking does help. I understand sometimes the chat room is alone but believe me you're not alone. I took Judys advice and started a grief group near my area and that has been very helpful. This may help you too please check it out.