Time flew and so did his memorial balloon, fifth month since Jeff been gone. I did a lot of thinking and a lot crying mostly wondering what the future holds for me. I do see a bit of progress it’s been two months since the body ache went away so I’m hopeful for a better future. All tho I still wake up wondering why I have to face another day, by midday I feel better and nights are not so painful.
I set Jeff memorial balloon free at night this time with his note attached and a kiss enclosed. His balloon headed towards the moon with a slow staggering past, wiggling about like it didn’t want to leave but was taking the journey anyway. It made me laugh seeing it wobble also made me feel guilty that I was forcing the poor balloon to take my love note on such a long journey. As slow as it was going I blinked my eyes and I lost its sight.
I hope everyone is seeing better progress we all grief different and we all heal different. Being in the site talking to people and sharing my story has help in many ways. I know in my heart we will all be with our loved ones in a better place. But for now this earth has so much to offer let’s not watch it spin while we stand still.