THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

[heidi bermender]

 ITS BEEN 18 MONTHS SINCE MY SWEET ANGEL PASSED AWAY I CRY EVERYDAY AND CANNOT STOP CRYING  I JUST YEANR SO MUCH TO BE WITH HIM   HE WAS AND IS MY ENTIRE WORLD I CANNOT SEEM TO KEEP GOING I GO TO COUNSELING  I READ ON GRIEF I FEEL SO VERY LOST  AND I FEEL THIS WORLD IS A PLACE I DONNOT WANT TO BE  YOU NEED TO UNDERSTNAD BILL WAS EVERYGHING TO ME  WE DIDI EVERTHING TOGETHER HE WORTE ME POETRY AND CARDS HE HELD MY HANDS EVERYDAY  AND HE HELD MY HEART IN HIS WE WERE TWO PEOPLE THAT SHARED THE SAME HEARTBEAT KHE WAS A GIFT FROM GOD  WE ALWASY SAID THE SAME THING AT THE SAME TIME I FELT SAFE IN HIS ARMS HE PROTECTED ME AND OUR LOVE WAS AND IS MAGICAL  WE WERE MARRIED 32 BEAURUFL MAGICAL YEARS

HE MADE GOOGLE EYES AT ME ALL THE TIME HIS ARMS KEPT ME SAFE WE WENT TO SLEEP EACH NIGHT IN EACH OTHERS ARMS  WHEN HE BECAME BEDRIDDEN FOR ESPHAGAS CANCER  I TOOK CARE OF HIM AT HOME WITH MUCH LOVE HE HAD A GENTLE  SOUL  HAZEL EYES THAT STILL MADE ME MELT  KIND HEART

HE PASSED AWAY  AT HOME IN OUR BED THE ENTIRE TIME HE WAS BEDRIDDEN I LAYED HOLDING HIM IN MY ARMS AND TELLING HIM THANK YOU FOR EVERYGHING YOU DIDI FOR ME I STAYED IN BED WITH HIM THE ENTIRE TIME I DIDNOT BUDGE FROM THE ROOM I LAYED THERE HOLDING HIM TO ME THE DAY HE PASSED  AND TOOK HIS LAST BREATHE  I TOO FELT  I TOOK MY LAST BREATHE IAM SO VERY LOST

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Judy Davidson]

Heidi,

Thank you for sharing your deep and heart felt feelings about Bill.  I am so sorry for your loss.  You were truly blessed indeed to have had such a wonderful marriage for so long.  What you are feeling is completely normal; you are not going crazy.  I know from personal experience that expressing your feelings is a key to healing. so you're doing a great thing by sharing.  I pray that you God wraps you in His peace and comfort,

Judy

[catherine melton]

Heidi I to just loss the love of my life sept 6 we were married six years and my story is just like yours we were the same way so much love for each other my heart knows your pain cause I feel the same way but it's been 18 months and you are still like this then I know there's no hope for me that's why I have joined maybe we help each other get thru this I would like that I think it's like judy said sharing your story with others who have the same thing going on might be what we need I'm here to talk to you or anybody who wants cause I feel like I'm grateful to my family and kids but until you go thru it you will never understand the pain we feel it is overwhelming .