Hi Lisa, Im gina. I m so saddened for the loss of your mother. I hope you can find some comfort here. Ive been coming here snce I lost my husband and my only child ,muy son Edward. I have found some comfort here ans  most people here know the raw emotions we are going through and the emptiness and numbness. I know this is very raw for you at this moment. I lost my mother in 2006 .she was my very best friend,and I grieved her passing until my son passed away then I guess  his death  shook me to my core. I know this is hard and to tell you the truth I dont think we ever come to terms with our losses we just adjust to the new normal. I wish you peace Lisa and many blessings to you . I hope you have someone to lean oon. take care gina:)