i am so sorry for the loss of your wife

Very sorry for your loss and unfortunately know all too well some of the things you are feeling. I lost my husband in May from cancer he was 52. Hopefully we can help each other as I am struggling as well.

I feel like that if it were not for Sophia I might have given up as well. But I have always been a strong person and I will not allow this death to define me. My daughter NEEDS me and so does your son. Believe me I know your pain. I cry all the time but you are young and hopeless is no way to go through the rest of your life. There will never be another love like the one you had with your wife. But you know there are all kinds of love out there. I did many things this summer with my daughter to try to relieve our grief. We traveled met up with family and friends. Not saying I wasn't sad at times but it beat sitting around the house wallowing in misery which I could easily do. I totally miss nighttime as well. Even when he was sick we would sit in bed watch our favorite programs etc. I read now just because it is still painful for me to watch tv at night in bed without him. I miss all of his bad jokes and his optimism. But I look around the world and I see other people who have it so much worse than me. So I try to focus on what I have instead of what I have lost. Our daughter is amazing, the best of both of us.