My Heart hurts

[Mer]

I lost my daughter in May. My Mir was killed in a car wreck, at age 22. I find that I am becoming angry and will use any excuse not to grieve. I miss her so much. Today I transplanted her ivy that I kept from her funeral service. I threw away that foil wrapping from the pot. It broke my heart. It's just foil... But oh how it hurt!

[Judy Davidson]

Mer,

I am SO sorry for your loss and your hurting heart.  It is completely understandable how you feel so deeply.  Thank you for sharing your feelings; it's the first step toward grief recovery.  While everyone's loss and grief experience is unique to them, all members know what you are going through.  Please reach out to other members through the Forum, Member blogs and Chat Room.  The blog posts on the Home page are helpful too.  I pray this site provides Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow.

God bless,

Judy

Founding member

[Haven STILLWATER]

Mer, It hurts so much to lose a child. I am sorry that your daughter is gone. My 30 year-old son died last February. I understand how much you want to hold onto anything that had to do with your girl and with that time. I've found some relief from this despair by talking with others who have lost children. I'm betting your daughter was also becoming a friend to you. She was old enough to be moving from that dependence of childhood. My son was also a friend and confidant for me and I miss him like crazy. Just know that even though that hurt so much to let go of something physical, like that foil, you somehow felt it was the right thing to do and you had the courage to do it. One small step on this unbelievably painful journey. Sending you an electronic hug from another mother who is walking this path as well.

Haven

[Mer]

Thank you so much. I know I can't bring her back, I just look back and wish specific moments had been different. I feel such guilt and regret. But, yes we were friends as well as mother and daughter. My older daughters feel as I do, of course. If it was not for my faith and my daughters and grandchildren, I would surely not make it through. Thankfully I have faith that I will see her again and that she is no longer affected by this world. Sending you a hug back.... Thank you very much.

[melinda maryott]

I am mew here we lost our daughter to stomach cancer she left us 0n November 19th 2014 she only had 10 months after she found out she had cancer she suffered for the whole 10 months never came home from hospital after she found out doctors said it was awful how fast it progress

[Angel]

You can ALWAYS bring her back...you guys just need to figure out how...I'm sure you'll see soon enough...feel better

[Angel]

Also, if your heart is broken,I'll lend you mine:)

[melinda maryott]

 hi angel was glad to see your reply wish I was a do not think I will ever see past this as many say

 
melinda maryott said:

I am mew here we lost our daughter to stomach cancer she left us 0n November 19th 2014 she only had 10 months after she found out she had cancer she suffered for the whole 10 months never came home from hospital after she found out doctors said it was awful how fast it progress

[Haven STILLWATER]

Melinda, I am so sorry that you lost your daughter. You are coming up on an anniversary and that is really tough. I lost my son in February of 2014. He was 30. It seems that without really realizing it I steal myself for specific dates and times related to him and I  get unhappy or tense and then remember that I am missing some time or event that was important to him. I'm sure you are feeling those things too. What a shame that she could not come home for a time. You had such a burden for those 10 months, so many ups and downs I expect. Being strong when you are falling apart inside. Your life is utterly changed. You don't get back to "normal"; you get somewhere different. And I'm not sure getting past the loss of a child is something that can even be expected. I hope you can let yourself be wherever you are and know that it is okay. Your journey along this path is unique to you. Electronic hugs from one mom to another.

[melinda maryott]

today is Friday October 16 one week ago our grandson turned 8 his first birthday since the death of our daughter his mother it was a long I'm sure it was for him also we sent him a package and managed a short phone call no mention of her but sure the thoughts went to her on both ends of the phone last year we went there for his birthday it was the last time we saw her look like her self hard day