I lost my grandma just over a year ago and I've been finding it hard to cope because I feel so alone and I don't have anyone's support. The most painful for me right now is that I tried to reach out to my mum when she finally arranged her funeral a year later when I came down to see her. She got angry with me for bringing her down. Its been a year already and she has to move on for her family because they need her. What makes me most angry, she belittled my grief saying I didn't know her that long 5 yrs or something, she was her mummy and raised and looked after her since she was a little girl. In actual fact my grandma was quite young when she had her and didn't spend much time raising or looking after her. it was my mum's grandma who raised her. She claims that I was selfish, but in actual fact I think she's a heartless bitch.