Fining a way back to healing without my son herewith me.

[Regina Diana Reed]

 Hi everyone!my name is Diane,and this is my first time here. Dont exactly know how this works,but my life has been turned upside downsince my sons unexpecly passed away in jan of this year. He was all the family I had left,and I am struggling to find a reason to go on myself.I have never been alone and this is so overwhelming I dont know how to move forward. I cant sleep,I cant eat, I have nightmares. I just dont know how to cope with such emptiness .Its like a part of my heart and soul have been ripped out of me,and I dont know how to start to heal.The tears are just flowing down my cheeks writing this. I thought if I could chat with others who feel like II do it may help me. Friends and co workers can only take so much before they run away from you. So, I thought if I could meet others who have or are walking in the same shoes I am  it would help the healing for us all. My son Ed was 45 years old when he went to take a nap,and he never awoke from. I nevergot to say good bye,I love you,nothing. Drs think he had aa heart attack of some degree,never heard a sound.I am  thankful the Lord took him quickly and peacefully,but It doesnt help me on this journey back to life as they call it. I do not feel it is life. Life should be full of happiness,laughter,and fun filled memories. mine is full of pain,saddness,  and being alone.So many unanswered questions on how to cope, how to live with this loss. thank you all for reading this and listening to this old lady ramble on. But,I do hope it will help me, you all of us heal,and find some peace for ourself, the survivior. :)

[Lulu]

Its not rambling on its speaking from your pain and wanting to find answers. I dont know the hearbreak of losing a son but i do know the pain of losing a loved one. And the feeling of loniness and despair. I guess we could call it life lessons or a part of life but it doesnt take away the feelings of wanting them back with us. From my experience holding on tight to the Lord is the best medicine he will guide you through what will be a diffuclt time be patient and have faith he will heal you. 

If you would like someone to chat with or email with you may always reach me through the inbox and i will defiently response its always good to  have someone to talk too. Take care. 

[Stephanie]

I am so sorry for the loss of your son I'm can't imagine I lost my dad in January also I am here for you any time of day !

[Chris]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how you feeling I lossed my 5year old daughter on June 15, 2016. She stopped breathing, she was put on life support and the next day we took her off she had no brain activity. They found a tumor on the brain stem that bled. No one knew she had. My world was turned upside down. She is survived by her seven year old brother with special needs.

[Regina Diana Reed]

Hi to all;I would like  to thank everyone who has replied to me about my sons passing,and sharing you heart aches of your own losses. You all have empowered me and given me so much strengh just knowing I am not alone in this tragic loss.The Lord has blessed me so much by each and everyone of you. It has been several months since my sons passing,some days are tolerable and then others are so painful I just cry myself to pieces. Grief is unrelentless at times.May you all heal and move on however slowly it seems.Please dont give up. Through this we will all heal and carry on. Many many blessings to you all and,thank you for sharing your losses with me and,taking the time out of your grief to comfort me. I will  not forget any of you.

[Regina Diana Reed]

Chris,thank you for reaching out to me to comfort me in the mist of your own grieving.I too understand your world being turned upside down, I am truly heart broken over the loss of your little 5 yr old daughter. I am truly overwhelmed at your loss. All,I can say is try to focus on your family for their love and support.I know this sounds impossible,but count every blessing you can think of every moment of everyday.I will pray for youu and your family. Just keep a goal in your mind and heart,this will give you purpose. Ive fought hard with this myself,and some days are tolerable and then most are not. Be strong and keep your precious memeries close. Thinking of you ...remember you are not alone.Many blessings to you and your family.take care of your son. :)

[Inge vandyken]

My gorgeous 41 year old daughter Jessica went to sleep and never woke up the night of July 19 2016. Nearly 8 weeks ago. Her 42 birthday is in 1 day September 17. I'm so confused and angry and can't believe this is my life. I need to talk to someone like me. I just don't get it.

[Helga Stevens]

I once had 2 strong healthy handsome sons until 1 passed 8 yrs ago and the other 4 months ago from an overdose. They were my life, as all children are to their parents. I am totally beside myself. I have a husband, but my whole family have passed
I am so lonely for my sons, I could just die. They were good kind considerate young men until that drug got a hold of them. They held jobs, and I have the most beautiful grandson ever. But he lives in Fla. And I'm in Mi. I am so dead.

[Regina Diana Reed]

Helga Stevens said:

My mother

[Helga Stevens]

I can't trust myself to go anywhere because I cry when I wake up, before I go to sleep, all day. So I feel trapped in the house all day and since I lost both my son's, I take turns, so I can't get a break. I wasn't even able to grieve my mother yet, she passed almost 3 years ago because I am consumed with my son's for which I also feel guilty about. I have death on the brain all day. How does one get over all that pain, I just don't know!!!

[Regina Diana Reed]

Helga Stevens said:

I can't trust myself to go anywhere because I cry when I wake up, before I go to sleep, all day. So I feel trapped in the house all day and since I lost both my son's, I take turns, so I can't get a break. I wasn't even able to grieve my mother yet, she passed almost 3 years ago because I am consumed with my son's for which I also feel guilty about. I have death on the brain all day. How does one get over all that pain, I just don't know!!!

[Regina Diana Reed]

Helga Stevens said:

I can't trust myself to go anywhere because I cry when I wake up, before I go to sleep, all day. So I feel trapped in the house all day and since I lost both my son's, I take turns, so I can't get a break. I wasn't even able to grieve my mother yet, she passed almost 3 years ago because I am consumed with my son's for which I also feel guilty about. I have death on the brain all day. How does one get over all that pain, I just don't know!!!

[Sylvia Freifeld]

Regina

I do not really know what to say. I know you are going through hell right now but remember time is a healer. All I can say right now is take comfort in knowing that everyone is here for you and so am I.