Taken too soon..cancer..i miss my mother

[Noelle]

My mother was battling esophageal cancer and thyroid cancer for about 8 months. She had her esophageal tumor removed and was going to have her thyroid removed. Chemo made her very sick, at least we thought it was just the chemo. On Oct 28, 2015, my mother was diagnosed with inoperable brain cancer. 8 days later she died. She ended up on life support..and her heary failed..twice. She was brain dead. These images haunt me..everyday. She was 51..i am 25. I had to act as power of attorney. I have so much regret...i didnt talk to her about what if this was to happen. We thought she would have years. .not days. I shouldve been a better daughter...i feel so alone and so helpless without her..she was my best friend. Today marks 2 months since shes been gone.

[Ava]

My mother has passed, not from the exact same reasons but she had cancer. I too have regret even though she knew she was going to pass but didn't tell me and my sister. Writing doesn't always help me it occasionally writing a letter -to her- will help. Talk to her. I constantly see signs of my mom. Her favorite number was 11. and I see it every day. I see it in times. 6:11, 4,11, 11,11...... Maybe look for something that she liked... a number, a word, anything. It may help. Stay strong. Reach out to me at any time!

[Carole M]

You were a wonderful daughter. You were with her to the end. That's about all

You were a wonderful daughter who was there until the end. You did a lot for her and I believe she knows that. The best thing you can do to honor her memory is to accept yourself and live a good, happy life. Reach out to others, practice kindness, vow to do a good deed every day. That would make her proud.

Take care of yourself. A part of her lives on in you.

[Carole M]

You were a wonderful daughter who was there until the end. You did a lot for her and I believe she knows that. The best thing you can do to honor her memory is to accept yourself and live a good, happy life. Reach out to others, practice kindness, vow to do a good deed every day. That would make her proud.

Take care of yourself. A part of her lives on in you.

[Noelle]

Its haunting :-( i was down the hall when th e doctors called time of death. ... she wasnt conscious when i was there the most. ..so i dont think she knows. Ive found her journal she only wrote 2 pages in it after she found out she has esophageal cancer...ive started writing in it...only when im really down...writing the rest of the story so that one day my daughter can understand it. .it helps a bit

[Noelle]

I ve been looking at all the photos and videos i have of her with my daughter...they only had 6 months together...time cut short..but it takes me back to all the moments i spent behind the camera just watching them. ..i hate that they wont know eachother... i have a picture of the first moment my mother held her...she cried...tears of joy...and i relive it all the time..breaks my heart

[Alexis D Smythe]

I am so sorry you have to go through this.  My mother passed nearly two years ago, and I still think of her everyday.  You will have to believe that you did everything for your mother, and that she really appreciates what you did. The alone feeling will pass further into your grieving.  I also went through the alone feeling, I have on brother who doesn't talk to me, and my dad died in 2008. Like they say time heals everything.  You don't understand that yet, you won't have much empathy for other people who die, and you will always wonder why you are like that, but that is part of the grieving and in a few months or even years you will understand and the saying.  I also, learned the true meaning, that life goes on.  Our lives stop with the loved ones death, but, the outside world is still carrying on.  How could this happen when we are suffering so much pain.  I am still working through my mother's death and hope someday I will be at peace with the death. 

[Noelle]

Thank you to everyone who has responded... it helps to know im not alone...it feels like ive become an inconvenience to my fiance because i still cry...hes becone annoyed with me and doesnt understand. My birthday is coming up..the 25th of January...and lately all i csn think about it how last year my mother wanted to take pictures with me and all the family. ..i was so pregnant and fat i refused to take pics..she got mad an said that would be the last bday dinner shed ever attend with me because of it ..i feel so selfish now... it really was theast bday we woukd have and i have zero pictures of me with her as an adult ...my birthday is going to be hard

[Noelle]

I added a couple pics of them to the photos on here ♡

[Noelle]

I just feel like a total brat
..all she wanted was pics of the family on my birthday while i was pregnant and we were all together ugh i spent so much time being selfish...i didnt even play scrabble when she asked or sit down to watch a movie with her

[Maria]

I just lost my dad to cancer and I'm 29. It just sucks. Some days I'm ok the next I break down and can't breath. It helps to know others are going through the same thing.
F Cancer!!!

[Jeralyn Richardson]

I just lost my husband to cancer July 6 the this year and I am having a hard time functioning I miss him so much

[Naomi Price]

My dad died in April from cancer which spread to the brain. We didn't talk about it. The images of him so ill haunt me too...It's an impossibly difficult time. The only times I really feel close to him now is when I listen to certain music but sometimes even this is too hard. I write to him too, I don't know if you would find this helpful but I write to him; I say everything I never said and everything I would say to him if he were still here.