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Lost and dead inside with the death of my son

I just buried my 33 year old son a week and a half ago. He was killed in a horrific car crash. I am right on the edge of a complete breakdown and all the pain, the suffering, the anger, the grief and every emotion imaginable is getting more stronger every day. I'm just absolutely dying inside and feel so completely lost and empty. To make matters worse my so called boyfriend has pretty much on a daily basis been tormenting me since the day my son died. I have been so busy trying to make him feel better and having to constantly reassure him that I love him and won't let it break us apart. If it's not that he's constantly starting hours of continuous arguing over some delusion in his head or hounding me about sex and if I don't want to, which that's the last thing I want or is on my mind, he will start accusing me of wanting another man and say the most vicious things to me. I have not had one ounce of time to grieve and focus on my the loss of Timmy. I am so beat down and exhausted from this I just want to be dead as well. And no, I would not ever be suicidal as I still have my daughter and all of my grandkids. I just do not know what to do. I just don't feel I can ever live my life without my son and I know I haven't come to terms with it or even accepted it. Please, any advice someone can give me would be greatly appreciated.

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Hi Pamela,

Welcome to Grief Hope Network and thank you for sharing your story and your feelings.  I am so sorry to hear about your son.  I have a son and I'd feel the same way as you.  I wish I could give you a BIG HUG.   Feel free to share however you are feeling; we all understand.  You have made a BIG first step in reaching out to others who know how you feel.  Perhaps your brother is dealing with his grief in his own way at this time and I hope that you are reunited to help each other.  

All members here have empathy for what you are going through.  I'm recovering from the loss of my mother in February.   My husband passed away in 2004 and I started this site to help others a few years ago.  Please reach out to other members through the Network, Member Blogs and Forum Chats.  The chat room tends to have more people in it at night.  The Home Page has some good Blog Posts too.  I pray the resources here provide Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow.  You take good care of yourself.  BIG hug!    

God bless,

Judy

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Dearest Pamela, 

I am so sorry to hear that your son passed.This is one of the most heartbreaking things to happen to anyone. I recently had my grandmother pass away so I understand your grief. Even though I can imagine loosing a son is very different and much more painful. I know this post is from a couple weeks ago however, I wish to share some good news from God with you. Our loving creator Jehovah God gives us the promise of seeing our loved ones again in the near future. This means you can see your husband again; yes hold him again and be together for eternal life.This is not false comfort nor a fantasy, this is reality.

This message from Jehovah is found in  Revelation or Apocalypse 21:4 " And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes,and death will be no more,neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore.The former things have passed." This event is to take place very soon. With the help of his son Jesus Crist, he will resurrect all of the righteous people such as your son to walk the face of the earth forever.

Imagine that! This is no fantasy. Nor a false comfort. This is real. If you wish to see more information on this topic, please dont hesitate to contact me via this chat or email. You can also do your own research on our website www.jw.org, or directly see this URL that explains everything I have mentioned above. https://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/questions/what-is-the-resurre... 

Hope you are doing well and to hear back from you soon Pamela , 

Donna Gonzalez

 

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