I'm really sorry to hear about your loss CJ. I know the feeling. And hopefully somehow, somewhere, we can find the help we need to help guide us to a path of healing. If you want to vent, or just talk, let me know. Personally, I haven't had anyone to really talk to, so it might be nice to have someone to chat with

I lost my princess 10 months ago, she was 4 months old. To be completely honest, everyday feels as if it were just yesterday. I haven't been able to find a way to "heal", every day since hurts as much as the night it happened...im not saying that you (or me, or any of us) won't ever be able to find some healing, but, it can take (what feels like) an eternity. There are good days, and then there are days where I have to try and fight my demons...and then there are days when I fail and try to find comfort at the bottom of the bottle. It's not easy, but, I can say this, for your sanity, keep her alive. Talk about her when you can, make her your wallpaper, write down (or type up) special memories or moments that come to mind, these are a few things I've been able to find for myself that help ensure that "good days" can be had. I don't know if it means anything, or if it helps, but you're not alone. It's a real shitty thing, but those of us here, we all lost someone truly special to us, so, in a nutshell, we aren't alone.

Thank you for me the bottle never seems to be empty and the pain just won’t go away