3 1/2 months without Thomas now and I still feel him urging me-giving me direction. Tonight I was driving home past a local restaurant and felt the urge to stop for a bite-I resisted and drove past, but the lull was strong so I turned back and went inside only to find my close friend Sergio with some other good friends. We had a fun, improptu evening and I feel Thomas sent me there. This is so hard being without him, but I think about how bad he would be if he was still here and he did NOT want that. So I will try to be open and patient and be glad for any feelings I have that he is with me in spirit and for his never-ending love.