How do i let go?

[Stephanie]

I lost my bestfriend 10 years ago. We met when we were both 15 years old and dated ever since. He suffered from heart disease, he had a mechanical valve and a pacemaker. One day he was having a hard time breathing and wasn't the same since. He died at 18 years old on jan.17th. Im married now with two kids whom i love very much. Lately i catch myself thinking of him alot. I miss everything about him. I also keep having the same dream, where we are holding eachother tight in tears and he reminds me how much he loves me. I wake up with this empty feeling in my chest thats hard to explain. Before he passed i was pregnant but had a miscarriage a month before he passed and i never really grieved. I stayed strong for him. When he passed i stayed strong for his mother and sisters as well. Is it wrong that im still heartbroken over his death even tho I'm married now. I feel horrible about it. Just can't get rid of this feeling.

[Nicole Miller]

I so understand staying strong for others and that, to me, can sometimes be the hardest and worst part. Having no one to lean on or share emotions with can be isolating.  Have you reached out to anyone to chat about him with?  I find that talking can be very therapeutic.  Just my two cents, but sending big hugs your way.