Hi, Maryellen

Hello MaryEllen. This is Henrietta Baker. I have so much bottled up that I don't know what to do. I lost my Ex-husband last March. I can hardly believe he will be gone a year in March. From the time they diagnosed him with Liver Cancer til he died, it was less than two weeks. I know this is wrong, but I wish it was me that had died and not him. He was stronger than I am. What else can a person do? I have prayed, until I can't pray anymore. I feel a piece of me is gone. Thank you for listening to me. God bless all of you.

Thank you for your kind words. I need help, I think. I lost my husband of 41 years to cancer three years ago. I ran away from home to be with him when I was 17. He was my best friend, my soul mate. He fought it for seven years and I took care of him but still worked full time. I was with him when he died. There was nothing left unsaid. I even went to a medium about a year later and I know that he is fine and happy and with me always and that we will be together again some day.

I have done everything I was supposed to do. I waited a year, then I retired but got another job in another city to be near my kids and grandkids. It's a great job. But I am so incredibly sad and lonely. I miss him so much and no amount of activity can make up for it. Every little thing reminds me of him. I cry every day. I don't want my employer to think I'm a basket case. I don't want my daughter to know how unhappy I am, it would make her feel bad. I've been taking anti-depressants since before he died.

Is there something wrong with me? Is three years too long? WIll this get better?

Dont know what to say other than thank you. 

Thank you for your condolences.

Thank you so much for your condolences.

Thank you for your response, Maryellen. I'm sorry for not responding sooner to you but the Holidays suck for me for lots of reasons. Just want you to know that I appreciate your effort...