A short story about me. I lost my wife to suicide October 3rd this year. She was a wonderful stepmother o my 2 children. We area all seeing counselors (separately). I find it hard to open up to my friends or family, even my therapist! I figured I could open up on this page because I won't know anyone. I can't stop being sad, I feel like a piece of rotting fruit and it's only getting worse. How else can I cope? The thought of holidays are killing me. If it weren't for the kids I wouldn't even…

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Starting at age 2. I remember vaguely the phone calls my dad made to me when he was away. I remember feeling alone and wanting my mom and dad to come back. I would ask about them frequently and just told they would be back soon. Moving forward just a little I remember being at my dad’s funeral, I remember seeing him lying there in the casket, I remember asking about him and being told he is sleeping. I accepted that answer but did not…

My brother was tragically killed this past summer on August 28th 2013. He was killed in a workplace accident. He was killed 4 days after all my family was together for another brothers wedding. I just keep remembering getting that phone call. How can my little brother be gone? He was so full of life and had such a passion for the arts. He truly excelled at everything he put his mind too. My family means the world to me. I consider all my siblings my friends. I just spent 2 weeks with my…

On Thursday September 19, 2013 I unexpectedly lost my wife of 35 years.  She was to our knowledge in perfect health. Not overweight, had a vigorous exercise program, excellent blood pressure.  She was doing some situps after her dinner consisting of a vegie plate.  She stood up and said that she had a really bad headache. She made to a chair and died of a massive aneurysm in the brain.  She was the light of my life, and that of many others.  She was a wonderful giving person who will be…

My name is Brandon, I am 25 years old. I lost my mother who was 59 to terminal cancer last week. I was taking care of her at home in hospice care, i was the full time caregiver. I lost my dad when i was young. I feel like i lost the only person who cares about me, loves me. We were extremely close, she was my best friend. I've been so sick since she passed. And i think about it all day, i held her hand as she took her last couple breaths and looked into her eyes as they stayed open. It's so…

For over 20 years, I have been blessed to be a member of Saddleback Church.  Many of you may have heard of my pastor, Rick Warren; author of the infamous book, The Purpose Driven Life.  You may have also heard that he and his wife Kay lost their son Matthew a few months ago; he took his life after a longtime struggle with mental illness.

Rick and Kay grieved like any parent who has lost a child, but on an international scale.  I knew they would eventually use their pain and grief for…

on april 22nd 2013 my precious baby boy came into this world at 12:48pm we heard him cry twice then the room went silent he stopped breathing the had to put a breathing to in to help him breath. his lungs weren't fully developed and he was trying to use his heart to pump blood to him and his deceased sister who never had a chance to live because they never separated in the womb so she was attached to his chest just a little hand and foot they shared a bottom lip so there was no way they…

I lost my mom on Saturday, July 29, 2013.  She was 58 years old.  I still don't have the autopsy results.  Not knowing what caused her death is driving me crazy on top of the horrific loss itself.  We were very close and talked and texted everyday.  I miss her so much it's unbearable at times.  I feel like I am going to lose it.  I am trying to carry on but find it harder and harder.  I thought this was suppose to get better with time but it feels like it's getting worse.

Im fairly young for my age and it breaks my heart knowing my mother was taken from me at such a young age. While college is barely beginning and it seems my life is beginning to start, I often look for guidance of my mom, but shes not here physically. It's so hard to continue on when I only have my dad and my older siblings who don't understand how much a mother truly means to a girl. She was my best friend and now I seem lost on a daily basis. I want to ask for help with certain situations…

My boyfriend passed away on 2 December 2012. I got a phone call the next day, it was one of his mother's friends, she told me that there had been an accident and that my boyfriend didn't make it.

At first I couldn't really believe that what she'd told me was true. I dreamt every night that there'd been a mix up and that he was still alive. 

Since his body was so beaten up by the accident they told us we shouldn't see him again. Standing at his coffin I just couldn't believe it…

not sure how these work.  technophobe.  i am feeling like evil person.  my current husband lost wife in 3 months to cancer 2 1/2 yrs ago.  we became involved quickly as he really pushed it foreard.  knew there would be price to pay when man was trying to give his 44 yr old new interest his 63 yr old late wifes shoes for weeks.  hes a good person and i decided to invest what it took to move on together.  shoes went to womens shelter

two years later i am still hearing how she…

Today I am thinking about my Grandmother's wisdom that she taught me, about when life gets hard.. And that is "For nothing ever stays the same.." Sometimes its hard to understand and cling to these words, simply because I miss her so much. Missing her voice and not being able to call her and let her talk to me, and tell me all will work in God's timing. For I know God's timing is perfect. For He has a plan Jeremiah 29:11.

He has blessed me so much, a loving husband, friends and close…

Thank you all for your kind words on this new years day.  As I said, I am a hot mess and not in very good shape, but I hope that one day I can return the kindness.  I will leave you with one of my very favorite quotes in the world:…

I lost my husband in April of 2012 - not a year yet.  Between us there are 8 adult children that I am now responsible to.  It has been an amazing blessing sharing this loss with the kids but I feel like while I have been there for them, I haven't been there for myself.  I have no idea how to move beyond the internal despair and loneliness.  I keep up a pretty good mask when people are around but once I am alone, the feelings come back and ht me hard.  My husband was diagnosed with cancer at…