He left me 3 yrs. now. He was suffering from depression and leaned into a train. He was away at school. It never registered that, there was something wrong. He always seemed happy with me. I went to his dorm to clean out his things. I searched every where for some kind of note. I always felt so close to him. I couldn't fathom the idea of him not leaving me a goodbye. I was told later that he sent a text to his friend saying goodbye. I just feel like I can't breath anymore. I tried my hardest to be such a good mom. I wanted my children to have a better life. I did everything I thought was right. I know his suicide wasn't about me, but this act made my life feel meaningless. I Failed my family. I have 2 wonderful children at home. I've tried my best to comfort them. I spend every day thinking of Alec. I try to keep it to myself but the hole in my heart will never go away. I love him so much. It's really hard for me because my other son got me into Alec's social media (he used apps I never heard of before). He posted over and over how he wanted to die to his friends. His friends never told anyone.
Alec was the smartest, funniest, & caring man. He would of gone so far in life. I'll never see him finish college, get an amazing job, get married, and have children.
I want everyone to know that if a friend speaks of suicide. Tell someone!! I understand that friends might not take it seriously, or that they just want attention. We'll they do. Tell!
Does anyone have any thoughts about what happens when you die.
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I am SO SORRY Heather. As a mother myself, my heart goes out to you ... I hope your fond memories with Alec bring you some comfort ...
Big hug,
Judy
Oliver's post on May 22 might be helpful to you:
Hi everybody, Like any human being, during our live we have encountered the death of family members with whom we lived and acquaintances, e…
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I am SO SORRY
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