So sorry for your loss.

I've spoken in depth with wife Rachel's mother...... My wife was 32......i see you lost a baby..... I'm so sorry..... I've learned that the death of a spouse and the death of a child create very similar pain and sadness.... They must be the most intense losses of all.

Yes. It is. A hole like no other. It has been over 3 years but feels like yesterday. The first year is numbing. This time of year is especially daunting.

Rachel died just six months ago, I used to feel guilty every time I ate because I wasn't making sure she got something to eat too, I don't know how I'm going to celebrate the holidays at all this year, we were married 7 years and this will be my only thanksgiving and Christmas without her...

Do you have family close to where you live? Take it easy on yourself. Do what you can. Even after the loss of my daughter not being as fresh it still is very hard. I make food or buy clothes and think I should be buying for one more. Ordered train ride tickets and thought she would have loved this.

I do have some family, but I took my wife away from her family in Florida due to a job transfer, now I'm closer to my blood family, but truthfully I feel so guilty for being alive while she not, I'd rather just be alone with my grief and her memory because...... Long story....... But my blood family didn't love her like I'd hoped and she had hoped, but her blood family in Florida did love me just like family, so there's a lot of guilt, sorrow, and even physical pain that has resulted from her death. I understand your mentioning the train ride, I think about her missing something all the time

Oh my. You Can not worry about that right now as far as their pain. One day at a time for you. Deep down she would want you to live life. That is how we honor them. To keep going.

That is the best way of looking at everything, some days I have it, other days...

And there will continue to be those days. Grief is a roller coaster. No one can tell you how to grieve. When to grieve. Sometimes the oddest things will hit a nerve and the tears come. And that is ok. Those are healing you. Some days the band aid is secure. Other days the pain is gushing. Be gentle on yourself.

Hi Robert
My name is Nancy and I too lost my spouse recently. We were married for 44 years. I wanted to reach out to another person who could understand my pain. I'm glad I found u on here