I love you Mummy. Oh How I miss you. I still need you. Always.

[mintleaves]

My one and only mother, who loved me unconditionally, and protected me and cared about me has died on April 1, 2016.The pain is so immense. No words can describe this hurt, this agony, this sorrow. This is my pain, a pain that comes from deep within my heart and all around it. MAMA, the day you died, half of me died. You are my world and now my world is gone. Forever. How do I know where you are? What signs are there, if any at all? I will never accept that you are gone from me but you are, so I am numb, my life is frozen. I have nowhere to turn, nobody to turn to, nowhere to go. Nothing will bring you back next to me. I miss you mummy. I love you. I sing this every day to you. Every day, and as I walk up to your grave over my sobs I sing this to you. When I reach your grave, I scream out into the sky. I scream at the top of my lungs. MAMA, you are my world. Oh how much I love you! Nobody can hear me except the squirrels. I am so angry that this thing called death exists, that it causes so much pain and misery. Just tell me mother, oh please give me a sign that there is something after death.

[Judy Davidson]

Mint leaves,

I am so sorry to hear about your mother.  Feel free to share however you are feeling; we all understand.  You have made a BIG first step in reaching out to others who know how you feel.  May I ask how old you are?  A book that has really helped is "Within Heaven's Gates".  If you believe in heaven, focusing on your mother's joy in heaven may help take away some of the pain of your loss.

All members here have empathy for what you are going through.  I'm recovering from the loss of my mother in February.   My husband passed away in 2004 and I started this site to help others a few years ago.  Please reach out to other members through the Network, Member Blogs and Forum Chats.  The chat room tends to have more people in it at night.  The Home Page has some good Blog Posts too.  I pray the resources here provide Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow.  You take good care of yourself.  BIG hug!    

God bless,

Judy

Founding member

[Camille Moncrieffe]

BIG HUGS TO YOU  Sorry for your loss. I lost my mother a month ago, I am feeling physical pain all over my body. No one seems to understand they keep saying its time to stop crying.... I miss her so much. sleep sweet in heaven my dearest Veronica

[Adriana Taylor]

I'm very sorry for your pain. And I know exactly how you feel. I lost my mom on April12, 2015, the day my life felt like it came to a complete end. I only say "felt" because I am still breathing for some reason. I feel I have no purpose anymore, which I bet you have felt too. There's only been a few moments here and there that I can bare and actually smile, but mostly I'm just feeling empty and hopeless. I have a brother whose married with kids, I am not. He has a successful business, I do not. So I have issues of jealousy too. There really is no reason for me to get up, and some days I really don't want to. I miss my mom so much I cant bare it. She was not only my precious mom but my very best friend, travel companion, and shopping buddy. Even if I did get married, sometimes I wonder what the point is, she wouldn't be here so what's the point? I don't know if you believe in God, I do, but I'm having a very, very hard time with my faith. I'm very angry, disappointed, and truly upset with God.  He took my mom and left me alone in that house. I hope you can find some peace, and I certainly know that's hard, even if its just a little. Take care.