Lost

[Pattie Piccione]

I just lost my husband of 15 years yesterday.. He was my heart my soul my life and now he is gone. I am so lost I just don't know where to turn.. I have a house full of his family that still refer to his first wife whom he divorced 30 years ago as his wife... I am just so lonely, I want everyone to just get out and leave me alone... but I don't want to be by myself

[elizabeth murray]

hi there i think i can identify with the kind of loneliness you are feeling right now. i lost my husband 4 years ago this november, and he was my soul mate and my "life" as yours was. he wanted dearly for me to be a mother figure to his grown up daughter, but she felt no affection for me as she is so strongly attached to her real mum his ex wife. he had broken with his past ties and wanted only a new life with me, but now he is gone i wish for even his ex wife as a friend just because i have nothing and no one else left of him. does his family live with you full time when you say you have a house full? i think in that situation you might be better trying to get a place of your own, by yourself, as i am finding it is easier to grieve alone in my own space, without having to fit in with others. i would imagine that in a way for you there is the joy that they remind you of him and are a link with him, but also a constant remindre of his ex wife too, who you feel you are being set to compete against. i don't k now if you have any kind of spiritual faith, but i would like to promise you from my heart that this is not "the end" and you will see him and be with him again x

[Kim Lachapelle]

I understand... I lost my love on June28th... his daughters from his first wife and the rest of his family are all gone now and I am finally alone.  I still don't seem to be able to let go and grieve though.  I don't want to start... don't know if I will be able to stop... I'm alone and I miss him so much.  It wouldn't make a difference if this room was full of people, I still feel alone.