Lost my Grandma yesterday

[Matcia]

Hi guys despite the typoAs the title says, I lost my Grandma yesterday.  It has been just about 24 hours since we got the call from my uncle.  She was on a ventilator and the doctors said there was no hope of recovery so we knew it was coming which I thought would make it a little easier because I could prepare a little bit and send her a goodbye letter since I couldn't be there beings she was in the southeast and I'm clear up in the northwest.  They turned off the machines about 3:00 their time and she died about an hour later.  I almost wonder if I cried so much yesterday there isn't anything left because today my eyes feel pretty dry.  I have a ring of hers in my picket that I will be carrying around with me for awhile.  I know that since she wore it there is a piece of her still on the ring (skin cells and DNA) so it's like she is still with me.  I woke up this morning wondering how she was doing thinking she was still in the hospital then it dawned on me, she's not there anymore, she's dead.  How long does it take before you forget that they are really gone?   I',m going to a grief support group near me tomorrow.  Mom was like why there is no grieg she is in a better place.  I told her I know that but it doesn't mean that I'm not going to miss her and I hae to adjust to the fact that I'm not going to see her for probably some 40 to 50 years which is a long time to go without seeing a Grandma that you had so many good times with.  Here's a picture of her with her brother who died 10 years ago.  I bet he was right there to give her a big hug, welcome her to paradise and show her aroudn.

 

 

[maryellenmcquown]

so sorry your right you need the group and us