Help for today & Hope for tomorrow

Not sure why I'm here but Im obviously not alright

One of my close friends recently killed himself....like a little over a month ago. And I just miss him so much. He meant the world to me. IDK how to explain our relationship. He was kinda like the father I wish I'd had. Hell, he said he'd walk me down in the isle in place of my father someday when I get married. He was always there to protect me. If something bad ever happened I would call him.

A week (down to the exact day) before he killed himself I said, "He is the only one I have left." Well I guess thats what I get for caring about someone. For leaning on someone. In a months time I lost the three people who knew and (I thought) cared; one to betrayal, one to God, and the last one to suicide.

How am I supposed to be okay? How am I supposed to make it through the school year?

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Permalink Reply by Judy Davidson on May 26, 2015 at 8:21pm

Hi Jasmine,

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend who was like a father to you and your other 2 losses as well. I know it seems impossible, but you will get through the school by taking baby steps. Thank you for sharing your story. Communication is key to grief recovery so you have made a BIG first step in reaching out to others who know how you feel.

I apologize for the delay in responding I'm recovering from the loss of my mother as well. Please reach out to other members through the Network, Member Blogs and Forum Chats. The chat room tends to have more people in it at night. The Home Page has some good Blog Posts too. I pray the resources here provide Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow. You take good care of yourself. BIG hug!