Everyday I think about how she should be here how I was supposed to bring her home and raise her. I wish and pray with all my might for it all to have all just been a dream. I get the same feeling all day long that I just want to cry just straight bawl my eyes out. But nothing will ever bring her back. I never got to know her on a personal level but I still knew her. She had this one spot on my side where I would try to guess what she's poking through me. But I never got to hear her laugh or see her smile never got to feel her hold my hand I never got to see her look at me. It has been a little over a month an I still have to remind myself I'm not pregnant anymore. I'm so mad because I wanted my baby I would've taken care of her an kept her safe I wanted to bring her home and show her so much love.