i am so sorry i know the pain of losseing a mom so so sorry

Hi. I lost my mom a couple days ago and I totally get what you feel about being in shock.. I'm so scared of what it's gonna feel like later when it feels like she's really gone, not like she's just away for a couple days. I still wake up in the morning and pray it was just a dream but it never is. I can't put that feeling into words it's so horrible. I hate that she won't know me past what I am right now. She won't meet my children, or see me get married, or give me advice on dating. I just wanna go back and redo all the times I was a evil daughter to her and I just hate myself for it..