I lost the person I fell in LOVE with :'( on the night of October 28 me and my boyfriend were crossing the street about 3 houses down from mine when a car drove behind us and started too shoot at us my boyfriend was shot In the head and died instantly everything happens so quick I just remember getting on my knees grabbing his hand telling him babe babe babe get up get up we have to go home I kept screaming at him screaming for help for the cops for an ambulance I didn't know or atleast I didn't want to think he had passed the ambulance finally got there and they didn't do anything his body stayed on the floor and I screamed at them and told them can't you see he got shot in the head can't you see he's bleeding and that's when they told me he was dead I screamed I couldnt belive in the blink of an eye he was gone my honey bun the person I was supposed to love forever :( 2 days later I go to the doctor because this pain I'm feeling is crazy I stopped at the corner where it happens to put him a candle and some flowers and a neighbor comes and he's like his wife came shes angry and looking for you I was so confused like what are you talking about next thing you know I find out that the whole time we were together he was lying to me he wasn't married but he was living with this other lady it hurt me even more to find that out it literally feels like I'm getting stabbed in the heart multiple times. I gave him my heart he was my first boyfriend my first everything he would tell me the sweetest things ever we spent every holiday together all the times he would spend the night we would text day and night I don't know how he kept up with all the lies all the lies that I fell for ! I had no clue he was living a double life he told my parents he was ready to take another step he told me that by next year we would be living together and in 2 years I had to give him a baby. The only person that knew about ne was his brother he said that he did love me that he wasnt happy with the other girl and he did have plans of starting a new life with me but know i dont know what to really belive i will never know what was a lie and waht was the truth ill never know and understand why he did this Although it hurts so bad and I feel betrayed I'm not mad at him I love him and I'm going to love him forever everything I do reminds me off him all the songs I listen too reminds me off him everywhere I look I see him sometimes I wish that whoever did this would've just shot me also that way I wouldn't be going threw all this pain I cry everyday I have nightmares and flashback of everything I think of all the what ifs I wish I could go back in time, I miss him so much the way he would look into my eyes And tell me how much he loved me the way he would hug me when he would sing to me all the times he would come I'd be getting roses to a point where I told him to stop because my room was looking like a garden the way he woukd get jealous when other guys would pass by us he would hold my hand tighter or kiss me I just miss everything about him I wish he was here ! I'd give anything yo have him back I'd never imagine being with out his love