I lost my mom on Saturday, July 29, 2013.  She was 58 years old.  I still don't have the autopsy results.  Not knowing what caused her death is driving me crazy on top of the horrific loss itself.  We were very close and talked and texted everyday.  I miss her so much it's unbearable at times.  I feel like I am going to lose it.  I am trying to carry on but find it harder and harder.  I thought this was suppose to get better with time but it feels like it's getting worse.