My father died about 4 and a half years ago and i still cant look at something of his without bursting into tears. No one in my family looks like they feel the same. My mom hardly pays attentention to me & my sister moved out so im basically alone. I just feel like screaming into a pillow. I cut myself trying to get rid of the pain and it doesnt help. I wish i had someone to talk to , to understand what im going through