Hello, I am Sad

[Sad]

Hello, everyone, I am Sad.....I joined this club I hate of "widowhood" about 8 months ago with no warning.

W e would have celebrated out 40 anniversary in Feb. with a party, instead it was a party for one with lots of memories and more tears and more what now.

 

My husbands death was unexpected he was fine and talked to me before I left for work, never realizing that last kiss, touch of our fingers or look would be our last...The alone that followed, the fog that has yet to lift, within that month my husband of almost 40 years, my business,  and the place we had lived was all gone.  Days I don't know what to do, somedays I don't even get out of bed, I just don't fit anywhere anymore.  I'm tired of people telling me oh you should be over it by now, you need to move on, forget about it and.  well when they've walked a day in my shoes then they can say that, I do have friends and family that I wouldn't have made it thru, but honestly when you don't know where your headed its very hard.  I just want to tell you I understand your grief, I've lost my Dad years ago and that was so hard, and I find myself thinking if he were here he could fix all this.  I don't know what lies ahead, I know someday I will be ok, it will be in a different way but it will be ok.

Blessings and I ask for your prayers for us all.

 

Sad 

 

 

 

 

[Judy Davidson]

Hi Sad,

I responded to your blog post.  Did you get it?

[Sad]

no, Judy I havn't seen it yet