Four years ago in august I was 7 month pregnant with my first child. My husband passed away result of a car accident. In the last year I met a man who I fell truely in love with and felt happy again. We ended up getting pregnant and I thought finally things were coming into place I was growing more and more happy and feeling like my old self. Then I got sick and had to deliver the baby who passed away. I sit here many nights what awful things I could have done to have such awful things happen to me. Don't get me wrong I am blessed to have my first child and family. But it's hard to take this. It hurts me everyday thinking of it. Just wondered how you even talk to anyone about this. I know no one who has experienced loss like this of a child and a husband