Wife passed nov 15 2019 still crying in anger

[Lexi]

My wife passed due to medical conditions aggravated by alcoholism. I have done so much to get past this. However I find myself regularly still crying in anger frustrated at her for passing frustrated at myself for not getting her the appropriate help and frustrated because my now 10yr old daughter is struggling wither her passing more now thank when it happened. Im lost and confused and still angry as I feel my wife mentally gave up.