So...in 26 days it'll be My Mom's one year.
I'm stressing and almost always crying now. I force a smile at work and pretend I'm okay, but the truth is I'm not. I don't want to lean on my friends to much because I know they don't know how to handle it or know what to say to help me.
This causes me to be angry at them and even mean to them, which I absolutely hate because it's not their fault....No matter how much I try to be nice it gets worse....
But yeah...I'm upset and I don't know what to do or how to handle it. My sister all work on our Mom's one year which upsets me a lot. Nut I don't have the heart to tell them not to, because we all live so far apart. And they need the money, so I don't want them to take a day off unless they want to or have to.
I'm just a wreck and I feel so alone right now because no one seems to be as upset as me. I miss her more than anything and I cry everyday. She was more than just a best friend, she was My Mother. And it's hard to go from seeing her everyday to now knowing I haven't seen her in a year.
...... I just miss her....
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Thank you for the love and support, though I do still feel alone. Though I may not be alone in knowing the pain as many know what the loss of a parent is. But to me I feel alone in my family, I know my sisters grieve differently, but the fact that they act like nothing bad has happened sends pain and anger into me. I do however push the negative away and know they probably feel the same as I do.
Rhonda your amount of pain shouldn't offend others, because you are hurting as well. We all came here looking for people to understand, to help us cope with our losses. And though we may still feel alone and as if no one will understand, I do think however that we ourselves will find comfort in this site.
i lost my father to suicide in 2009, so i know the loss of a parent. i know. i never got to grieve properly because i was in school. it hurt so much when it all came rushing back, i wanted to kill myself. that's why i'm on here
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